Sweet pea.

Somehow in the major shifts that have swept through
my life recently some things have disappeared. In all
the stress and turmoil of these weeks, I have somehow
lost a sense of relaxation, as I parent my children.
I don't hear myself using as many little terms of
endearment, I have always called my little boys
"Sweet pea..." but I don't think I have said this
in a while.

Things have been in flux for so long now that new
patterns have formed. I hear myself busy, moving
from one moment to the next without stopping
to *breathe*. And oh how I need to breathe, to just be
with my children. Nowhere to go, nothing to do, just
be.

How much all this rests on where I am as a person,
how centred I am, how grounded. Somehow I need
to find a balance, a place where I can be a little
softer within myself, a little more relaxed. In a
space where I remember what it is to say
"sweet pea" again.

To this end I plan a little meditation, a bit of
cloud watching, massaging of feet and
reading of lovely things. A bit of filling of my
own cup, of connecting with my children and
remembering what it is to be slow again.
Wish me luck......